DragonFUZE #16

I started writing the I Hate You script tonight. I have written a few pages, and the story is already freaking me out. Also, another thing that is getting to me is that I don't think I will make it in to the anthology. One of the editors wrote to me today to say there are three piles that they have divided the submissions into: Yes, No and Don't Know. I Hate You is in the Don't Know pile; they are not sure what to make of the story. They won't know until they see a script. I think I am the only writer to have a script in that pile; I am still in with a shot.

So, I am writing the script! I don't give up that easy. The script is getting to me, and I have only written two and a half pages. I am scared of this story. I told my wife about it and she hates it, she is repulsed by it and can't understand why I would write anything like this. I don't either. In the end, I think that's going to be my downfall.

Basically the editor told me there are a few stories with similar themes to I Hate You and only one will get through. I could go about this two ways. I could sanitize the story to make it more palatable, but that's not me. This anthology is about revenge, so this won't be pretty. I am going to push myself as hard as I can. I want to be uncomfortable when I write this (which I am) and I want the artist, the inker, the letterer, the editor and the reader to feel the same way.

Of course I want the story to be picked up. But, I also want to be proud of the story. I want to push myself as a writer. There's no easy way out on this one.

It's 11 pm. I'm off to sleep.